"Where you invest your love, you invest your life." -Mumford and Sons

I don't understand you sometimes. I don't even want to do my homework anymore because of you.

Never Too Late

It's never too late to fix things. No matter how long it's been since you've talked, you can always try to start over. There is NEVER a too late. It's too late when someone dies. That's when you can't speak to each other again. If you're both alive and capable of conversing, then I say that you go for it and you say whatever you need to get off your chest.

Time to take my own advice for once...

Counting down the minutes to see you....

Hearts and Diamonds

I never thought we'd be where we are. Just one little mistake made me start feeling this way. Normally I would get over it and we would be fine again, but for some reason, a sorry won't do. Other times weren't too big of a deal so I just let it go, but this one can't slide. When you're trying to teach someone a lesson, you can't just let them off easy because you love them or because you want to give them another chance. There are only so many chances before you have to take a step back and realize what you're doing. I'm worth more than that. I should have realized that I'm more precious than the most expensive diamond in the world and that belittling myself for someone else is one of the most horrible things you can do to yourself. I only wish I realized it sooner. And now I'm left in a state of confusion. I know it's my fault, but now I'm confused as to how I feel about you. There is so much doubt in this relationship, this thing we call love. I said that I still love you, but I mean it in a way where a best friend loves a best friend. I care about you and I want you to be happy, but the spark and the magic and the love...it just isn't there anymore. I guess it's up to you, do you want to try and win my heart back? Or do you want to continue our relationship as friends? Because as of now, I can't say that I'm in love with you anymore.

Cluttered

Is it just because I'm still on my period and I'm still having mood swings? Or is it because I'm just annoyed at you because of the agument we recently had? Or is it because I'm just fed up with you right now? Or is it because my feelings for you are cluttered? I don't really know. We've been talking less nowadays because we're both so busy and it's difficult to find time to take a break and send a text. I still wish that we could text more and talk throughout the day, but sometimes, I don't even think twice about it. What does this all mean?

Curiosity

Sometimes I just want to break off our relationship so that I can see how things will turn out. I want to see how you would manage without me and how I would manage without you. I want to see if you would chase me and ask for me back or if you would let me go and not say a word. I want to know if you would continue to love me or if you would hate me for breaking your heart and move onto someone else. I want to know if it would make you cry or if you would feel indifferent about it. I want to know who you would tell first and how long it would take you to tell everybody. I want to see if either of us will be happier without each other. Sometimes I want to break up with you just so I can realize that I have to get back together with you. But no matter how mad or angry I get, I would never break up with you because it would kill me if I did.

"I don't love you like I did yesterday"

It's a Big Deal

Note: I can't believe I haven't blogged for a freaking month! That is so depressing... I guess I stopped writing on here because my time just became taken up and used on other things. I'm sorry blog. I promise I'll start writing on here more since summer is approaching

I don't think you even read this blog anymore since you just read my Tumblr now. If you don't read this anymore, that might be a good thing because then I'll really be able to let everything out without being afraid that you might say something about it. I'm about to talk to you right now actually. I told you that I need to talk to you about it, but honestly, I really don't have much to say. The only thing I can say is "I wish it didn't happen" What else am I supposed to say after that? If I plan to only say 5 words, why make it sound like a big deal by saying "I need to talk to you" because now it sounds serious. Well maybe it's because it is serious. It's because those 5 words hold so much power and and so much meaning behind them that it was necessary to elaborate on them and make the conversation sound more serious. Goodness, I don't even know if this makes sense, but that doesn't matter because this is not for reading purposes, it's for blogging purposes.

I think I just fell even more in love with you.

When you said you didn't care about anything anymore, it hurt to hear it just because I know that part of it is me.

4 hour conversations from late night til early morning? I always cherish these things between you and me

I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to be feeling towards you right now.

I saw you today. I feel as though every time I see you, I reach a new level of happiness that I've never felt before. When we first hugged today I didn't want to let go for a second, your hugs are so warm and welcoming. The confinement of your arms is where I want the rest of my life to be. The feeling I get whenever I see you is so indescribable; these are times when I know we're going to last through this relationship because I know that I could never feel this way about anybody else in the world. I'm sorry if it seems like I ever doubted the strength of our relationship, I know that we're going to make it through everything.

There are so many questions I could ask him, but I won't since it won't matter because I'm with you.

Planning Ahead

Now I know exactly how you feel about planning ahead. The excitement and hard work you put into it in hopes that you and your partner will have the perfect night and experience you hoped for. All of those feelings built up just to have them shattered with a simple "I can't, I'm busy." Even though it's neither person's fault, you just feel the need to blame it on them. Even though you love them, you want to scream in their face that this was supposed to be the perfect night and how could they be so careless and insensitive not to try and reschedule their other plans? It's just how things work. Things aren't going to shape according to YOUR perfect plans, no matter how much work and dedication you put into it. I understand now baby, and I'm sorry about all the fights we got into because of this in the past. But things happen. Sometimes you can start over and sometimes that chance was the only one you had. Regardless, we still have each other and that's just about all we need.

Judgment

A LOT of people judge our relationship. They think you're too old for me or whatever. I mean come on, three years is supposed to be a big gap?! But regardless of what they think, I promise you with my whole entire heart that I will NEVER leave you just because someone has a certain opinion about us.

Words

Why do words hurt so much? Even the ones that aren't intended to hurt, do. Can somebody please make this heartache go away.

Okay, seriously?

Forced

Where are you when I need you the most? It's like you don't even care. You say that I can come to you and talk to you about anything, but sometimes I feel like I can't bring up certain things with you. I don't know, I feel like yesterday and today have all been completely fake. Of course there are things said that we mean with each other, but aside from that, the small talk sounds forced. It's sad to think that you can't come to the one person you should trust the most with everything you want to.

Married

I wish I could be with you all the time. You bring out the positive energy in me and you just always make my days better. I don't know why I'm thinking about it now, but the future popped into my mind. Not the high school, college, career future. The get engaged, get married, have a life future. I know we talked about how we're going to last through this together and eventually we're going to get married. I know it's such a far statement since accomplishing that is so so difficult especially because we're so young. My feelings haven't changed about it, I still want it to happen. Sometimes I just daydream and think about how our life would be if we were together, happily married. Will we get along? Will we fight often? Are we going to fight about who does what? I don't know, sometimes I feel as though my teenage years are prolonging themselves on purpose. Other times I wish I could always be a teenager and not have to grow up and face responsibilities. But then I thought about it and whichever way things turned out, it wouldn't matter because if this lasts like we said it would, I'd be facing everything with you. And I know that if I have that much, anything will be bearable.

:) ♥

Right now I’m going to sound extremely cheesy and cliché
But my words are from the heart and I mean all that I say

I was thinking about all the things that we’ve been through
And the many problems that have erupted from us two

They find little ways to slowly split us apart
But I’m always back in your arms like I was from the start

My fingers woven into yours are perfectly entwined
And I smile as I write this cause I get to call you mine

You make me feel complete, like a whole or an integral
And every moment spent with you feels absolutely wonderful

You changed me as a person and shaped the way I am
I promise to give you my heart and love you every way I can

L-O-V-E, they’re just four simple letters
But when spoken by you, suddenly everything is better

Whenever I’m with you the whole world stops spinning
It feels like an eternity, but my life with you is just beginning

I know it’s kinda lame to ask you through a rhyme,
But I love you and I hope that you’ll be my Valentine?

Puzzles

This paranoia is gnawing at me from the inside. I can't even explain it; I wouldn't be able to if I tried. I don't know why I feel this way, I don't know why I still think about it. I know I need to stop because it's ridiculous and it's getting out of hand and I feel pretty pathetic. I think it's because I overthink everything, plus I'm insecure and my thoughts are all jumbles. But there's something wrong with me, I feel that things are out of place, but I can never put my finger on it. I can never figure out or try to explain the puzzle inside my head. But in any case, if you happen to read this post, which you will eventually, I wouldn't advise you to worry or dwell on it too much. :)

Oh It Is Love

Sometimes you meet someone and you just know that they're the one. The first time I met you, I had no idea that we'd even be in a relationship. That's why I don't believe in love at first sight because how can you be in love with someone you've seen for 10 seconds? But I do believe you can be in love at a young age. It doesn't matter if you're "naive" and it's not going to work out. Maybe things do change and they affect your relationships with each other, but love is love. Time changes love, but once you feel it, it's there and it's not like other people can tell you that it's not. I don't care if my heart is going to break; when the time comes for it, I'll eventually accept it and move on, but for now I know that deep down the feeling in my heart and mind and soul is love.

"Well you can think whatever you want about us. I don't care. All I know is that you;re here for me through bad and good times and that I can count on you for anything. I truly can't see myself with someone else. And maybe we're attracted to each other physically, but that doesn't change the fact that I care about you emotionally to a point where I can't even stop loving you. That's my answer baby. I don't need to hear yours :)"

There are monsters growing inside us.

What's wrong with me? Why am I acting so clingy? This is SO not me. Maybe it's the hormones. But ugh sometimes you just make me sooo......

That choking feeling in the back of your throat where it feels like it's closing up and blocking your airway, making it more than difficult to breathe

3 hours.

"If you can't decide between two people, choose the second person because if you really loved the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second."

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO US?!

Every Single Word You Say

I don't know if this is TRUE love or if there's still a little bit of infatuation behind my feelings. But you still give me butterflies at least once everyday and things you say make my heart contract and skip a beat and I don't even know how to explain it. I thought that after being in a relationship for a while, my feelings would subside and I wouldn't be so excited as I was before, but I'm still in love with you as ever and I didn't think it was possible, but I'm falling for you more each day with every single word you say.

I don't even know why I'm dating Michael. He's such a faggot and a douchebag and he's mean.

Without knowing, I did something I told myself I would never do again. I fell for someone, became vulnerable, became attached... I gave my heart to you.

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it’s better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.

In love, you don't get to choose. You just fall and end up with someone in front of you who is so wrong or so not your type, yet it feels so incredibly right.

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer tot he next time you will.

When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.

This whole entire day, my mind would bring flashbacks of yesterday and a shiver would go down my spine.

Moving Forward

Honestly, I feel like we move forward too fast. I know we talked about this subject already, but one thing leads to another and I'm scared of what it will all ultimately lead to. I wish we could have slowed down a looot more, but I mean it's not like I can say that I regret anything because regret doesn't do you any good. I really liked today though, actually falling asleep in your arms, laying next to you, staring into each other's eyes. Not having it all centered around physicality was refreshing and comfortable. And then towards the end things took another leap forward and it was pretty scary. I guess it's all about experimenting and being okay around each other no matter what happens. Earlier, I was trying to explain something about you liking me more than you should. It's not that you like me more than I like you, it's just that you're so emotional and sensitive on the inside that it was a little unexpected and I totally thought you didn't like me as much as you do. If that makes sense? I don't know, but I like talking to you. I can say stupid, idiotic things and you'll love me for it. Thank you :)

I Don't Know Why

I decided to type all of this out. I'm the journaling/record-keeping type of person so naturally, I feel compelled to keep conversations that mean something to me and are worth remembering. This one definitely was. I hope no one finds this blog. That would be embarrassing...

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I’m sorry we always have a dilemma about this subject. I don’t want us to have disagreements about hanging out, but I want to do high school girl things at the same time like picking out what to wear for the game and doing each other’s hair and little things like that. I know you’re going to tell me it’s all right and that I should go, but I felt like I needed to say more. And I’m not going to dance with other guys; I wouldn’t do that to you. I understand that we won’t see each other for 2 weeks, but we can always see each other another day cause we make the effort to. But I don’t want to miss another dance or hang out cause those only come around every once in a while. I’m sorry if it still upsets you deep down

What I was thinking about earlier was the dance. Personally I want you to go to the dance, but deep down I know I’m going to get kinda jealous and mad. I know you’re not going to dance with guys, but there’s a possibility that they’ll just go up to you. When I was at the dance I didn’t do anything because it was weird for me. I want you to go but sometimes I just want you for myself, sorry I’m selfish. What I was planning starts when your dance starts.

Okay so be honest, did you plan this because you knew the dance was on the same day?

No I didn’t even hear of the dance until you said it today. I thought of my plans yesterday night when I went home. I wouldn’t do something so selfish.
So we were looking at stars yesterday, but we couldn’t. so I was thinking of taking you to Signal Hill when you get out of school for a picnic, then wait until night time to look at the stars

Wow, I don’t even know what to say. I can’t say no to you.

No, yes you can! Just go to the dance. I’m just surprised that you think so low of me that you think I would plan something to ruin your plans. I’m your boyfriend and you think so low of me. I know I’m not perfect, but come on. Why was that even a possibility? Sorry if I get in the way of everything. To get it off my chest, I was thinking earlier, things change when you’re in a relationship. You start to hang out less with your friends and etc. I was thinking about when you said “I’m my first priority, I do things to make me happy” Well, I do things to make you happy all the time even if I don’t like it, so why can’t you sometimes do the same? Don’t feel like I’m guilt tripping you, I’m not.

I don’t think low of you. I’m sorry what I said was misinterpreted to seem like I do. Since we’re letting everything out, I kinda thought you just didn’t want me to go. I’m thankful that you do all these things to make me happy, but if you don’t want to, then you don’t have to. It’s not going to make me mad if we don’t watch Vampire Diaries because I know you don’t really like that show. And if you don’t want to do something I want to do, just tell me. You should hang out with your friends more too; I don’t want our worlds to just revolve around each others. I want to make you happy, but I want to make my friends happy too. I’m left in such a difficult situation all the time. I don’t know who to pick, but if you noticed, I always end up choosing you

But you don’t always end up choosing me. What are you talking about? Sometimes you choose them. Okay if life is easier without me in the picture, just break up with me. I don’t want you to be torn in two all the time. I’d rather see you happy from afar than see you in misery. So your friends’ happiness is the same as mine? I don’t know but my friends understand that they’re going to see me less and they’re okay with that. I don’t want us to disagree about this anymore. We have been doing it so much lately. I want this to stop. I don’t want to argue and be mad at each other before we go to bed. I’m sorry for being irrational and for planning so far ahead. Even if it kills be inside, I want you to go to the dance.

The truth is I could spend every day of my life with you and be happy. I’m just afraid that if I miss out on the little high school things, I’m going to regret it later on. But don’t think that I’ve ever regretted choosing you, I never have. Why did you even suggest me breaking up with you? Life’s not going to get any easier if I do that. I know you want to make me happy, but arguing is doing just the opposite. You’re not a bad boyfriend; it’s probably a good thing you get jealous like that. And don’t apologize for planning ahead. I’m sorry I thought you did it on purpose. This is our relationship, we need to make each other happy and I don’t want it to kill you inside. I don’t show it all the time, but you don’t realize how much you mean to me.

Why are you trying to make your friends happy? Do things that make you happy. Sorry I’m such a terrible boyfriend, getting jealous and stuff. I want to stop it, but I can’t. I might not show it, but I have never regretted anything I’ve done in my life including anything I did with or for you. I don’t know what to say, but you’re the one for me. You think I’m stupid and naïve, but everything you do makes me smile. You upset me then you kiss my lips then I forgive and can’t remember what you did. You can lighten up my day when everything seems dark. I think it’s good that we’re having little disagreements rather than having stuff pile up and having it all come out at once. I love you Julie. I don’t want us to fight. I’m sorry if you’re tearing up over this. You should sleep; you have to wake up early. I’ll just move the date.

Yea I need to sleep, but I have to finish AP Euro first since I’ve been a little distracted. I don’t want us to fight either; it scares me to know that arguments chip away at our love for each other. At this point, I don’t even care about the dance anymore. The only thing I would regret is not being enough of a teenager. I know we’re mean to be together, I can see it from the way we touch, how we act around each other. You’re my perfectly imperfect half. I’m going to love you forever and that’s a promise.

That last line made me cry. I’m going to love you forever no matter what happens. I’m not going to regret me time with you. It will always be the best experience I have. When I’m around you the feeling I get is so, I can’t even find a word for it, not even love or lovely. It’s a feeling I can’t explain. It feels like harmony.

I forgive you; you know I always will. You’re the only one I’ve ever been in love with and every moment with you feels right. I love you, Michael Le.

Thanks baby for listening to me rant. I freaking love you to death Julie Le. Nguyen*

Lol Julie Le :) Sorry I fell asleep again =/ I was texting while on my bed and it just happened. Good morning babe :) You’re not going to lose me, why do you say that?

I don’t want to keep arguing and lose you in the end. I don’t know what I would do. No one could replace you, a girl like you is impossible to find. A side of me wants to do anything you want, but the other wants to break down and cry. I need to learn and accept that I can’t see you all the time and you need me time.

I like the secondhand serenade quote :) Babe, we’re going to argue, but that’s not going to be nearly enough to break us up. Don’t break down =( There’s no need for tears :)

I love you Julie. I don’t know why but I felt like saying this before getting out of bed and starting my day

Thanks for making my heart flutter. You need to stop being good at that. I love you too :)

“We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.”

One Month Date

Yesterday we went on a date for our one month. You came kind of late, but it's okay. First we drove to Maggiano's but the wait was one hour, so we decided to go to Cheesecake Factory. We sat outside and both ordered pasta and what I loved about dinner was that the awkward moments in my opinion were so cute. I won't write all of them out, but you know what I'm talking about. And you looked so adorable too since I'm a sucker for guys in dress shirts & Vneck sweaters. After dinner you took me to the beach and we started walking to the pier. On the walk we talked about the randomest things like dances, the thumb test, partying on the beach, awkward dancers, kissed here and there, and then the pier seemed too far and we were running out of time, so we just turned around and headed back. I loved that walk with you though, it was nice and pretty and relaxed. But the point is, I can always be myself around you and you don't judge me. Even if I can't eat properly or if I jump at seeing shadows or if I have a huge imprint on my leg from sitting on a textured chair. You don't mind these things and you love me anyway. I adore that about you :)

You Are The 1♥

When I met you I never thought we'd come as far as we are now. I once layed in bed thinking about a time I would have to write you a card whether it would be for an anniversary or a special occassion. I was worried that I wouldn't know what to say or that I wouldn't say the right things since I've had weird writer's block.
But I think with you, things are different. I can write endlessly about you. I don't care if I'm fifteen and I don't care if my heart might get broken or if I'm naive. I'm living in the now, I'm living in the moment. You mean so much to me and you've changed me as a person. I wake up every morning knowing that my day begins with you. The first person on my mind, the first text I search for. Why I'm still up at two in the morning writing about you, I don't know.
No one but you has ever made me feel so comfortable around them. You make me feel loved, safe, secure, alive. You taught me respect, patience, forgiveness, and most importantly, love. Not that I didn't already know of those things, but you reminded me how to be good, how to be better. Without a doubt you are the first person I've ever loved. At first, when I said I loved you it was in a way where I meant that I simply cared about you and liked you. I knew there had to be a difference, there had to be something that meant something stronger. And then it clicked, I knew that without any pressure, any force, my feelings for you had taken one step further. I didn't just love you, I was in love with you.
I don't know what it's like to be married, but whenever I'm with you, I imagine it to be just like that. Hours with you seem like minutes and time becomes the worst factor. I don't know if we're going to last as long as ten years in order to get married, but anything with you seems like a possibility. I know we're not just another teenage couple blissfully in love, too clouded by love to think about reality. I've thought alright, and a lot too. I know that things end and nothing lasts forever, but I just have a feeling. I've never been in a relationship before, so maybe the feeling I'm getting is normal and will result in heart break in the end. But maybe, maybe the feeling I have is rare and true and beautiful and what if it means something?
All my life I've told myself to look down on love because it will only hurt you in the end. I grew accustom to having a pessimistic mindset and I had absolutely no faith or hope when it came to me and my pathetic love life. I pushed guys away, every single one of them. Even the ones who I used to be obsessed with and fawned over. The second they liked me back, I was uncomfortable and retreated to being single. But with you, things were different. I can't explain why, but that's exactly why. I can't explain it because that's just how it's meant to be. I think my fuel for liking you might have been because you were so unattainable and you hurt me so many times, yet you kept coming back to talk to me. You were different and there was a caring, sensitive guy underneath the personality that you let on.
Over the summer I told myself that I would like you and then the second I had suspicions you liked me back, I would stop everything, push you away, and move on like I did with every other guy. It never happened. My feelings stayed, I kept talking to you, and things started to change. I was falling for you even though I was too scared to admit it to myself or anyone else. I opened myself up to you and basically gave you everything because I trusted you. What started out being unrequited love turned into mutual feelings. You've made me so happy within the past seven months that I've known you, whether you "broke" my heart over the summer or not, it doesn't matter anymore. What matters is that we're together and you're here with me now and you make me feel so hopelessly in love that I don't want to face reality anymore. Sometimes I just wonder what life would be like if it were just you and me and no responsibilities. We could do anything we wanted, whenever we wanted and go on endless Rite Aid ice cream and boba runs. It's not just because our horoscope explained us extremely accurately, but because I know that you are someone my life can't exist without anymore. Call it me being naive and young, but something deep down tells me that we're going to last and get married and live forever together because I can't imagine myself possibly being with someone else. And even though people may say that this is too soon and we don't know what we're talking about when we say we love each other, I say everyone is wrong. They're not us, they don't know what we've been through, they don't know what we've felt. Even though we've only been official for about thirty one days, the other two hundred thirty with you have been just as happy and magical.
I can say this with clear and distinct confidence that you are the best thing that's ever been mine. Happy One Month, baby.

Made Up

So today and a little bit of yesterday we kind of had this semi-argument/fight. It was one of the worst things I've ever experienced with you because it didn't make me happy, it didn't make me mad, it just made me feel at a loss for words, which was strange because that never happens. I thought you were going to break up with me and you thought I was going to break up with you. I don't ever want our relationship to reach this level again because it sucked to not have a single clue what I should say. Maybe having this dispute was beneficial for us and maybe it'll build us stronger in the end, I just hope that we'll get through everything together.
I was upset at you earlier today, so I just wanted the hangout with the girls to come faster so I could forget about everything. But then stupid things happened at the hangout and I wanted nothing more than to be in your comforting arms. Then when I saw you, a wave of bitterness washed over me and I didn't want to speak to you very much, but somehow we talked again and we made up and things were kind of back to normal. Except it was a satisfying day because we both got through a small, stupid misunderstanding, which means that we're going to have the strength to do it again if it ever happens. :)
"What? Why would I ever leave you? No, never."

Speechless

Okay so like Jimmy I’m thinking about thinking. I read over our texts and it seems like I said some guilt tripping things. I’ve analyzed what you have said. I wasn’t trying to guilt trip you at all :( and it seems like you really want to hang out with your friends. So tomorrow just hang out with them instead of me. From the way you respond it seems like you think stuff like hanging out with your friends makes me mad but it doesn’t sweetie. I think you think that our relationship is the top priority, IT ISN’T! Remember if anything is bothering you just tell me even if it makes me feel upset. WE’RE IN THIS TOGETHER :) To answer your question earlier, I feel like we don’t see each other a lot. The reason why I like to be with you a lot is because every second I’m thinking about you and when you’re not there it’s like a dagger to my heart. You see your friends everyday at school but I only get glimpses of you. What really got me thinking was when Ann said “lol Debbie said is Julie not going to the dance cause Michael won’t let her” I really took that into consideration and what she said really hurt me. I won’t stop you from going to anything you want to go to. I’m personally jealous of your friends because they get to see you and your amazing self everyday. I think they take you for granted. In the beginning the girls didn’t even like you. Jeanette, Debbie, etc thought you were weird and creepy but I defended you. I started to bring you along and then you girls became friends. Now they act like they love you more than I do. I know that it’s hard choosing between me and them, but honestly choose them because I don’t want them saying “she’s always picking Michael” Sorry if it feels like I’m trying to be the number one priority. I know you want a grip of your life with your friends. I apologize from the bottom of my heart. I will never bother you ever again because I know you’re feeling inside that I’m taking you away from your friends, but I’m not trying to. Sorry that I’m distracting you from schoolwork, keeping you up when you’re tired and then getting mad when you fall asleep. What makes me mad is not what you do or say but that you keep stuff to yourself. Just let everything off your chest. So tomorrow let’s cancel our plans. Hang out with them because you barely get to see them. I’ll be fine tomorrow; I can always catch up on sleep :) This was a long message, thanks for taking your time to sort through this mess. We from now on will hang out on your terms cause that makes you happy and if it makes you happy it makes me happy. I can get used to it. Again I don’t want you to ever choose between your friends or me. Sorry for the troubles I cause you. Have a wonderful day and good morning Julie :)

Please, stop guilt tripping me. Sometimes I'd like to have a hold on my life with my friends. Of course, I can't tell you this because you're probably going to get mad at me. I love you, but I really hate how our relationship is prioritized almost all the time.

Just You & Me, baby

M: Sorry if I sounded mad before I hung up. I was irritated that you always fall asleep but then I cooled off. I said to myself that everyone has problems and bad days. I understand that you had a long day and you're freaking tired. Especially cause you're on your period. Sorry for being a dick and an insensitive boyfriend. I'm trying to change. Oh I apologize for having so much acne I saw what someone wrong on your three words, thanks for defending me. I'm trying to clear it up by eating healthy stuff. It's been working and I've been sticking to it. Sorry it's taking such along time stupid skin condition that I have. Omg I'm tearing up I'm so gay. Sorry for getting mad at little things, thanks for putting up with me. It doesn't matter if you don't know what you want to be. The thing that matters is that you're going to be with me and I'll do anything to make that happen. Damn long text. Okay good night angel.

J: Baby...It's okay, I understand if you get mad cause I do fall asleep on you all the time and I'm sorry you have to put up with that from me. And you aren't a dick or an insensitive boyfriend at all. Whoever wrote on my three words about you is a dick. Don't even pay attention to that because you're not even close to what they said. And about your acne, I don't even care. I care about who you are on the inside and as cliche as that is, it's true. You have an amazing personality and you are the best and only boyfriend I have and ever will have. I love you, all of you. Every single drop of blood, every molecule, every nerve in your body is all mine and I am in love with everyting. And goodmorning :)

You're Too Good

You make me feel so special all the time. You often put my first, even though I don't ever expect you to. You feed me compliments that I don't ask for or expect either. You accept me with all my flaws, most of all. I'm not the skinniest, smartest, successful girl out there and I have TONS of temper, hormonal, anger, frustrating aspects to my personality. And yet you welcome me into your arms and love me and never judge me for who I am. I've always been scared of relationships because of that. I was always scared that once the boy learned of my bad side as well as my good, he'd like me less and less for who I really was. But you, you don't do that. You think I'm unique and different and that's exactly why you're the one. You noticed all the things about me that I hate, that I am and you viewed them as something special. And I love you for that because I'd do the exact same thing for you.

"Waiting for you right now is not that bad compared to ten years! If I have to wait ten years, a couple minutes is nothing<3 "

"So we're going to defy the laws of the universe" <3

Heartwarming Conversations

J: Nothing just sitting here thinking about how much of a pathetic person I am. And also about how much I hate my sister

M: You're not pathetic, don't let anyone put you down! :) Aww so sorry baby forget about the world and just think about us!

J: But I finally realized again how bad of a person I am. I never listen to my parents, they're always yelling at me, my sister and I hate each other, and I'm never home. I always think about us, that's what the problem is. But it's like I can't stop

M: So it's not like you're doing something extremely bad. You're not drinking and driving or smoking. You're not a bad person. You're an awesome girlfriend :) I love you don't feel so bad

J: Thank you for always knowing what to say, I love you so much. But oh my god your texts keep making me cry

M: Aww sorry :( look on your fb wall :) Hope you're feeling better :)

J: Yea I sawL it, thank you :) <3

M: I hate you I'm a fob :(

J: It's okay I love your pronunciation of words :) go shower!

M: I mess up a lot of words! You're my grrrrfriend :)

J: Hahahah :) I love you, thank you for making me feel better

M: Done with shower. I realized I'm a bad boyfriend :( I don't watch your favorite movies, I'm
not there to hold you when you cry, I don't sing to all your favorite music, I don't do all these things like the guy from A Rocket to the Money :(

J: It's a Rocket to the Moon you dork! And you don't have to do those things to be a good boyfriend. You're already exactly what I need :)

M: Lol I messed up haha fackkkkk I need to be better :)

J: All you have to do is stop liking me and I'll be a good girl again!

M: Well that's going to be hard but if that makes you happy and not cry anymore, I'd gladly do it in a heartbeat

J: STOP MAKING ME LOVE YOU. And no, that wouldn't make me happy at all. I go crazy without you

M: What?! Is it something that I'm saying? I'm sorry I won't talk to you again...

J: No don't leave, you're the only one I can turn to

M: Wow biter! Why aren't you sleeping yet?

J: Thinking about my amazing, heart warming boyfriend :)