You Are The 1♥

When I met you I never thought we'd come as far as we are now. I once layed in bed thinking about a time I would have to write you a card whether it would be for an anniversary or a special occassion. I was worried that I wouldn't know what to say or that I wouldn't say the right things since I've had weird writer's block.
But I think with you, things are different. I can write endlessly about you. I don't care if I'm fifteen and I don't care if my heart might get broken or if I'm naive. I'm living in the now, I'm living in the moment. You mean so much to me and you've changed me as a person. I wake up every morning knowing that my day begins with you. The first person on my mind, the first text I search for. Why I'm still up at two in the morning writing about you, I don't know.
No one but you has ever made me feel so comfortable around them. You make me feel loved, safe, secure, alive. You taught me respect, patience, forgiveness, and most importantly, love. Not that I didn't already know of those things, but you reminded me how to be good, how to be better. Without a doubt you are the first person I've ever loved. At first, when I said I loved you it was in a way where I meant that I simply cared about you and liked you. I knew there had to be a difference, there had to be something that meant something stronger. And then it clicked, I knew that without any pressure, any force, my feelings for you had taken one step further. I didn't just love you, I was in love with you.
I don't know what it's like to be married, but whenever I'm with you, I imagine it to be just like that. Hours with you seem like minutes and time becomes the worst factor. I don't know if we're going to last as long as ten years in order to get married, but anything with you seems like a possibility. I know we're not just another teenage couple blissfully in love, too clouded by love to think about reality. I've thought alright, and a lot too. I know that things end and nothing lasts forever, but I just have a feeling. I've never been in a relationship before, so maybe the feeling I'm getting is normal and will result in heart break in the end. But maybe, maybe the feeling I have is rare and true and beautiful and what if it means something?
All my life I've told myself to look down on love because it will only hurt you in the end. I grew accustom to having a pessimistic mindset and I had absolutely no faith or hope when it came to me and my pathetic love life. I pushed guys away, every single one of them. Even the ones who I used to be obsessed with and fawned over. The second they liked me back, I was uncomfortable and retreated to being single. But with you, things were different. I can't explain why, but that's exactly why. I can't explain it because that's just how it's meant to be. I think my fuel for liking you might have been because you were so unattainable and you hurt me so many times, yet you kept coming back to talk to me. You were different and there was a caring, sensitive guy underneath the personality that you let on.
Over the summer I told myself that I would like you and then the second I had suspicions you liked me back, I would stop everything, push you away, and move on like I did with every other guy. It never happened. My feelings stayed, I kept talking to you, and things started to change. I was falling for you even though I was too scared to admit it to myself or anyone else. I opened myself up to you and basically gave you everything because I trusted you. What started out being unrequited love turned into mutual feelings. You've made me so happy within the past seven months that I've known you, whether you "broke" my heart over the summer or not, it doesn't matter anymore. What matters is that we're together and you're here with me now and you make me feel so hopelessly in love that I don't want to face reality anymore. Sometimes I just wonder what life would be like if it were just you and me and no responsibilities. We could do anything we wanted, whenever we wanted and go on endless Rite Aid ice cream and boba runs. It's not just because our horoscope explained us extremely accurately, but because I know that you are someone my life can't exist without anymore. Call it me being naive and young, but something deep down tells me that we're going to last and get married and live forever together because I can't imagine myself possibly being with someone else. And even though people may say that this is too soon and we don't know what we're talking about when we say we love each other, I say everyone is wrong. They're not us, they don't know what we've been through, they don't know what we've felt. Even though we've only been official for about thirty one days, the other two hundred thirty with you have been just as happy and magical.
I can say this with clear and distinct confidence that you are the best thing that's ever been mine. Happy One Month, baby.