Curiosity

Sometimes I just want to break off our relationship so that I can see how things will turn out. I want to see how you would manage without me and how I would manage without you. I want to see if you would chase me and ask for me back or if you would let me go and not say a word. I want to know if you would continue to love me or if you would hate me for breaking your heart and move onto someone else. I want to know if it would make you cry or if you would feel indifferent about it. I want to know who you would tell first and how long it would take you to tell everybody. I want to see if either of us will be happier without each other. Sometimes I want to break up with you just so I can realize that I have to get back together with you. But no matter how mad or angry I get, I would never break up with you because it would kill me if I did.