Overdramatic

All I can think about is all the ways she's better than me and all the reasons why you should like her instead of me since you used to like her before. I don't think it's a good idea to do that, but I'm kind of paranoid and I'm the type of person who thinks that all good things that happen to me are too good to be true and will be ripped away from me sooner or later. I'm really scared and I hope that doesn't happen to me with you. I know I'm being overdramatic and over the top, but I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to receive the news that you still have feelings for her because you obviously don't hate her even though you pretend to because she hurt you. I know, I can't believe I'm still having these thoughts after everything we've been through and after everything we've talked about, but my life has been a chain of disappointments so naturally, this has to be one of them. Maybe it's because I'm on my period or something, but I'm sorry for sounding so stupid and pessimistic. Hopefully I'm wrong and hopefully I won't doubt this so much in the future.