Words

Why do words hurt so much? Even the ones that aren't intended to hurt, do. Can somebody please make this heartache go away.

Okay, seriously?

Forced

Where are you when I need you the most? It's like you don't even care. You say that I can come to you and talk to you about anything, but sometimes I feel like I can't bring up certain things with you. I don't know, I feel like yesterday and today have all been completely fake. Of course there are things said that we mean with each other, but aside from that, the small talk sounds forced. It's sad to think that you can't come to the one person you should trust the most with everything you want to.

Married

I wish I could be with you all the time. You bring out the positive energy in me and you just always make my days better. I don't know why I'm thinking about it now, but the future popped into my mind. Not the high school, college, career future. The get engaged, get married, have a life future. I know we talked about how we're going to last through this together and eventually we're going to get married. I know it's such a far statement since accomplishing that is so so difficult especially because we're so young. My feelings haven't changed about it, I still want it to happen. Sometimes I just daydream and think about how our life would be if we were together, happily married. Will we get along? Will we fight often? Are we going to fight about who does what? I don't know, sometimes I feel as though my teenage years are prolonging themselves on purpose. Other times I wish I could always be a teenager and not have to grow up and face responsibilities. But then I thought about it and whichever way things turned out, it wouldn't matter because if this lasts like we said it would, I'd be facing everything with you. And I know that if I have that much, anything will be bearable.

:) ♥

Right now I’m going to sound extremely cheesy and cliché
But my words are from the heart and I mean all that I say

I was thinking about all the things that we’ve been through
And the many problems that have erupted from us two

They find little ways to slowly split us apart
But I’m always back in your arms like I was from the start

My fingers woven into yours are perfectly entwined
And I smile as I write this cause I get to call you mine

You make me feel complete, like a whole or an integral
And every moment spent with you feels absolutely wonderful

You changed me as a person and shaped the way I am
I promise to give you my heart and love you every way I can

L-O-V-E, they’re just four simple letters
But when spoken by you, suddenly everything is better

Whenever I’m with you the whole world stops spinning
It feels like an eternity, but my life with you is just beginning

I know it’s kinda lame to ask you through a rhyme,
But I love you and I hope that you’ll be my Valentine?

Puzzles

This paranoia is gnawing at me from the inside. I can't even explain it; I wouldn't be able to if I tried. I don't know why I feel this way, I don't know why I still think about it. I know I need to stop because it's ridiculous and it's getting out of hand and I feel pretty pathetic. I think it's because I overthink everything, plus I'm insecure and my thoughts are all jumbles. But there's something wrong with me, I feel that things are out of place, but I can never put my finger on it. I can never figure out or try to explain the puzzle inside my head. But in any case, if you happen to read this post, which you will eventually, I wouldn't advise you to worry or dwell on it too much. :)

Oh It Is Love

Sometimes you meet someone and you just know that they're the one. The first time I met you, I had no idea that we'd even be in a relationship. That's why I don't believe in love at first sight because how can you be in love with someone you've seen for 10 seconds? But I do believe you can be in love at a young age. It doesn't matter if you're "naive" and it's not going to work out. Maybe things do change and they affect your relationships with each other, but love is love. Time changes love, but once you feel it, it's there and it's not like other people can tell you that it's not. I don't care if my heart is going to break; when the time comes for it, I'll eventually accept it and move on, but for now I know that deep down the feeling in my heart and mind and soul is love.

"Well you can think whatever you want about us. I don't care. All I know is that you;re here for me through bad and good times and that I can count on you for anything. I truly can't see myself with someone else. And maybe we're attracted to each other physically, but that doesn't change the fact that I care about you emotionally to a point where I can't even stop loving you. That's my answer baby. I don't need to hear yours :)"

There are monsters growing inside us.

What's wrong with me? Why am I acting so clingy? This is SO not me. Maybe it's the hormones. But ugh sometimes you just make me sooo......

That choking feeling in the back of your throat where it feels like it's closing up and blocking your airway, making it more than difficult to breathe

3 hours.

"If you can't decide between two people, choose the second person because if you really loved the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second."

WHAT'S HAPPENING TO US?!